Woosh

I’m busy busy busy! OT recently. Submissions and public holidays shouldn’t be together! I don’t even have time to eat. Rahhh! I predict there’ll be OT next Thursday when I get back to work. So tiring and I don’t have time to use the computer at home. I just come home to bathe and then sleep.

Anyways, CNY is coming! Money money roll in! Everyone HUAT AH!!

TGIF!

It’s Friday!! Finally the weekends’ here. This week has been painfully slow man. But at least I’m productive at work and cleared some stuff that I’ve left lying for weeks/months =x

I miss my boy! Wonder if he’ll be back today or tomorrow. On Tuesday and Wednesday night I dreamt that he called me. Then I’ll wake up and check my phone to see if it was really a dream -.- makes me think if this is some kind of sign or what. Can’t be can’t be! Hope his field camp ends smoothly..

IT’S FRIDAY!!!

1 more day!

i’ve got a freaking headache, a blocked nose and much phlegm now.
been on MC for tuesday & wednesday.
went with wei to jem’s house on wed. watched gossip tv.
came back to work yesterday. no voice.
sounded like crap man.
today’s better but still bad.
why does my head hurt so bad!
i can’t concentrate on my work.
went for our second round of kickboxing lesson yesterday.
was the first lesson. we’re not noobs anymore.
1st lesson was pretty intense but was fun.
yesterday passed pretty damn fast. unlike today.
i still can’t stand that hongky.
impatient arsehole.
my headache seems to be getting worse.
i feel like going home nowwwwww
but. but. but.
i don’t knowwwww

arctic

maybe i should wear gloves in the office.
wants to leave this place asap!
think i’ll miss my buddies here.
but i still want to leave.
definitely won’t miss the devil.
she doesn’t wear prada.
i want chanel!
chanel 2.55 <3
this is damn random.
i have nothing to do at work that’s why.
though there’s submission tomorrow.
but there’s nothing much yet.
might have to OT =(
last kickboxing lesson tonight!
will have to skip if OT.
signed up for more lessons.
keep fit time.
NOT diet.
me never grow fat only grow fatter.
there’s a difference.
1 more day!
don’t like to msg ahgong.
his replies like very cold sometimes =(
or that it feels very fu yan.
hope he does well for his live firing.
and i really regret writing that letter.
after he said they’ll use it to mindfuck them.
though i don’t know how.
i wonder if they’ll read it =O
sudden loud thunder!
my fingers are freezing =(
it’s dark outside.
gonna rain soon.
payday’s coming!
time to save up some money.
thinking of studying soon.
i hate working what with all the politics.
i hate the hongky.
i am not your personal secretary okay!
knsccb !#%@#
gonna study HR i think.
remember how i used to complain about the attachment company?
actually it wasn’t that bad.
and daddy says he can see that i was happier working there.
i had ollie there with me!!
now i don’t =((
i miss poly life.
i miss my babes.
i wanna sit at the underpass eating tabao-ed beehoon.
skipping lectures to eat pepper lunch at IMM.
slacking at the underpass or CC basement.
getting chased off the CC basement by “ollie’s best friend”
buying onigiris and vitasoy up to class.
being (almost) always late for class.
laughing at shyy burping.
all the funny antics and lovely mr woo woo.
and then i miss those times in poly year 1 when the n1 people would meet up like almost everyday.
how we would hangout at macs most of the times.
laughing and being happy.
i don’t wanna grow up =(
growing up means more stress and responsibilities.
i wanna be that cute kid i once was.
sleeping eating playing all day.
no responsibilities.
no money issues.
i wanna be a taitai!
work when i want to.
slack when i want to.
no worries about money.
of course i want my hubby to love me too.
i don’t think i’ll be happy even if i’m a taitai but hubby doesn’t love me =(
i need lots of TLC.
i think it’s very hard to love me.
sometimes i wonder if zy finds it hard too.
i’m afraid.
of what?
of doing the wrong things.
of saying the wrong things.
of things going wrong.
of insects.
of supernatural.
of losing my loved ones.
of having no money.
of angry people.
of people who’re mad at me.
of babies who cry nonstop.
of overzealous dogs.
i want a dog!
dar wants to keep a dog.
but mummy says mama doesn’t like dogs.
and daddy will surely say no.
‘cos then who’ll look after it.
when he pees or poops.
mama? yeye?
dar says he’ll do it but i know he won’t. HA
it’s 4PM
the hongky’s coming back from his meeting.
please come back late!
noisy bugger.
i thought about it for the past few days.
i realised what’s missing.
but i haven’t said anything yet.
i wonder if he even bothers.
maybe it’s forgotten.
hmm hmm
i feel very lifeless these days.
and i’ve got a very boring life.
it’s like work, home, fb, sleep everyday.
except thursdays where i have kickboxing.
and saturdays and sundays no work!
i feel like i’ve missed out on loads of things.
i need a new wallet.
maybe it’s my wallet that causes my $$ to go so fast.
superstitious much?
i need to cut my hair.
my fringe is irritating me.
too long.
the last time i cut was 2 months ago?
my hair is growing longer!
duhhh~
and yes this post is very long.
i spend 1 hour 30 mins on this i think.
just random thoughts popping up in my mind.
i gonna go daydream now.
byebyebye!

freezing to death~

rahhhhh my hands are cold my nose is cold my feet is cold even my ears are cold! damnnn i don’t understand why my tolerance towards cold is sooo low considering the fact that i sleep in aircon every night. blahh

you know, i’ve been thinking alot these few days (the result of having too much free time) and i realised that i not only need emotional closeness but physical closeness too. i mean like how i need to be able to see my friends/boyf frequently too. now i feel like wei’s the only one here for me now like she’s the only one who can make me feel happyness now (besides some funny stuffs at work), and i wish wing was here too though i know that she’ll always be here with me in the heart hahah <3

and then there’s zy too. sometimes i think why my first relationship’s like that! like only together for a few months and then he has no time for me already. but then i’m handling it pretty well as compared to the first week he went in lol. like how he would take ages to reply my replies to HIS smses especially since i replied right after receiving it. which is the reason why i don’t feel like smsing him because i know that i’ll only torture myself as i’ll be waiting for his reply but then i’ll end up smsing him still and waiting for his reply the whole day. lol well i’m slowly trying to get used to it.

and i’ve got god “children” hahha 3! so honoured. i told wei next time i have one she’ll be the godma too (needless to say, wing will be too) heheh but i think they’ll have to wait for few years. i WILL get one! haha her new 4 month old is so damn cuteee not in photos though LOL but he likes to bite =c

and i wanna go to SPOOKTACULAR! it’s this halloween event at sentosa but then after seeing the video i’m having second thoughts. hahah it seems scarier than the night safari one luhh and night safari’s isn’t very scary but still i got scared =/ sianzation

4 more days till ah gong gets back! shall remind myself to bring aloe vera for his abrasions. so kelian =( and next week is like his field camp and he’s sure to have abrasions & mosquito bites & aches.

2 more hours left till end of work. and i’m on leave tomorrow! no work = happy jo-ann! hahah can’t wait for bonus day and then off i go wooots~

Today, I texted my brother saying “Always remember I love you! Never forget it!” to which he answered: “You better not be doing drugs.” FML

and then i saw this on FML and straight away thought of dar HAHA maybe i should try smsing him too to see his reply.

BRRR!

it’s freezing cold in the office and i don’t have my jacket with me! =( how i wish zy isn’t in tekong so then he can come have lunch with me and bring a jacket for me too sobs

sianzation

boring day at work
having no mood to do anything
happy 4th month anni baby!
may we last long long <3
got summoned to the ‘office’
nearly cried
forced myself to stop
thankgod i didnt
imma strong girl!
i wont cry for work
*smirks*
10 more days to a hug from him
he makes things better (:

“the spaces between your fingers were created so that another’s could fill them in”

IM BACCCKKKKK!! hahaha been pretty busy the few weeks i think. most of the time i’m either home late or too tired so i don’t update anymore. actually i’m just lazy. don’t know what to say either.

what did i do the past few weeks? can’t really remember hahah.

went to the science center + the da vinci exhibition on one of the saturdays i think? haha was quite interesting. what we learnt there? da vinci is very “hao sheng” hahaha. walked around the science center too. but the place seems very big. didn’t have enough time to explore more cos they were closing. wanted to find the room of mirrors thingy but nada ): nairmind shall go back another day to explore the whole place hehehe

hmm went to little india to have our dinner with joo wei  jem. my first time there!! hahah the people there really don care about the cars on the roads. just walk like nobody’s business and no one will dare to knock them down either la. ate some rice forgot what it’s called i don’t like it and i’m never going to eat it again. the only indian food i eat is prata. haha off to MUSTAFA! the place is really packed and many stuffs are selling for cheap cheap. even brands like nike addidas etc they just throw all the shoes there on the rack like some other cheapo brands. lol and we went to lim chu kang after that. guess for wad? the cemetery!! like my first time there too. haha so many firsts in a night. just drove around inside the cemetery. with headlights and music turned off. abit scary. abit only. haha anyway we didn’t see any “ah piao” thankgod. hahah but surprisingly there were quite a few groups of people there praying and whatnot. home sweet home after that.

and then there was the toys games & comics convention at suntec. went on one of the saturdays toooo. my first time to this. not too bad though. we spent almost the whole day over there.  zy realised that he’s damn fat that day. and my chin isn’t that long leh. hahaha but still an uggry picture. hahah had our dinner at aston’s and damn damn full. wanted to catch where got ghost but everywhere’s like full so ended up we chose the proposal. was the sneak preview. walk abit while waiting. finally i caught a domo(:(: and then i forgot what happened mood changed silence upset <3ache >.< hate that feeling. but but but it’s over. went back to jp’s ntuc after the movie, bought some ingredients and back to his house. cooked mushroom soup. yummy~

there was also a week that we rented dvds to watch. spent like the whole week over his house watching movies after work. and then kbox on a thurs that i fell sick. damn sorethroat and flu and fever. went home earlier. mc on friday. and then cough started till now. and i sprained my ankle like two weeks ago too. and it’s still not healed. uber suay month. spent one saturday on the phone with him. talked for a straight 6 hours. hooked on fish a fish hahaha. then i slept and cleaned my room. went out for a movie next day. shopping. caught a carebear(: cuteeee then went for dinner at thomson. not bad not bad. home after that.

work is getting busier and busier for me. irene’s gone off for maternity. so i took over her duties. many many stuffs to do. hahah but at least i won’t fall asleep now. and her seat’s great cos it isn’t like a freezer like my old place. though i can’t wait for irene to get back. feel abit abit stressful. and kena scolded by big big boss today. not really scold la. just warned. saying the people opposite complained about the noise. BUT it wasn’t me! i didn’t talk or laugh loudly over there lor. just cos i just moved over and kena complain doesn’t mean its me): new colleague came! exuan’s friend. another 21 yr old! yayness new friend(:

<3

I don’t know what love is, but when I’m with you, I feel like the safest person in the world. I forget about everything else. nothing else matters. It’s about the here & now. & when you leave, it’s a waiting game. Cause all i want is the next day I get to see you. & that’s the reason I keep on going everyday, in hopes that today is the next day I get to spend even one minute with you. so if this isn’t love… it should be, cause it’s the best thing in the world.

perseverance

You can’t go through life quitting everything. If you’re going to achieve anything, you’ve got to stick with something.

~ Family Matters

firsts

so today’s my first day in my first real job. everything’s okay i think. at least the colleagues aren’t bitches or anything like it. i didn’t sleep much last night. tried to sleep at 1am. laid around in bed until around 4+, 5am then i dozed off. then suddenly my alarm rang at 6am. ROARRR!! felt like i slept for 10 minutes only lah! but thank god i had quite alot of stuffs to do. at least i din’t fall asleep. my eyelids are so heavy now, but i wanna watch the 10pm channel u show. goddd help me. i’m already accumulating sleep debt on day one. damn it.

and i need to improve my people skills =/