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JoAnn — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 17:39:56 +0000

i want to blog ..

JoAnn — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:35:42 +0000

but i don’t know how to write it down.

i feel frustrated and annoyed and irritated and disappointed and sad and insecure.

i feel like throwing my temper at someone/something.

i cry.

i don’t like the replies.

what’s wrong with me???????????????????

arctic

JoAnn — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 08:25:15 +0000

maybe i should wear gloves in the office.
wants to leave this place asap!
think i’ll miss my buddies here.
but i still want to leave.
definitely won’t miss the devil.
she doesn’t wear prada.
i want chanel!
chanel 2.55 <3
this is damn random.
i have nothing to do at work that’s why.
though there’s submission tomorrow.
but there’s nothing much yet.
might have to OT =(
last kickboxing lesson tonight!
will have to skip if OT.
signed up for more lessons.
keep fit time.
NOT diet.
me never grow fat only grow fatter.
there’s a difference.
1 more day!
don’t like to msg ahgong.
his replies like very cold sometimes =(
or that it feels very fu yan.
hope he does well for his live firing.
and i really regret writing that letter.
after he said they’ll use it to ~~mindfuck~~ them.
though i don’t know how.
i wonder if they’ll read it =O
sudden loud thunder!
my fingers are freezing =(
it’s dark outside.
gonna rain soon.
payday’s coming!
time to save up some money.
thinking of studying soon.
i hate working what with all the politics.
i hate the hongky.
i am not your personal secretary okay!
knsccb !#%@#
gonna study HR i think.
remember how i used to complain about the attachment company?
actually it wasn’t that bad.
and daddy says he can see that i was happier working there.
i had ollie there with me!!
now i don’t =((
i miss poly life.
i miss my babes.
i wanna sit at the underpass eating tabao-ed beehoon.
skipping lectures to eat pepper lunch at IMM.
slacking at the underpass or CC basement.
getting chased off the CC basement by “ollie’s best friend”
buying onigiris and vitasoy up to class.
being (almost) always late for class.
laughing at shyy burping.
all the funny antics and lovely mr woo woo.
and then i miss those times in poly year 1 when the n1 people would meet up like almost everyday.
how we would hangout at macs most of the times.
laughing and being happy.
i don’t wanna grow up =(
growing up means more stress and responsibilities.
i wanna be that cute kid i once was.
sleeping eating playing all day.
no responsibilities.
no money issues.
i wanna be a taitai!
work when i want to.
slack when i want to.
no worries about money.
of course i want my hubby to love me too.
i don’t think i’ll be happy even if i’m a taitai but hubby doesn’t love me =(
i need lots of TLC.
i think it’s very hard to love me.
sometimes i wonder if zy finds it hard too.
i’m afraid.
of what?
of doing the wrong things.
of saying the wrong things.
of things going wrong.
of insects.
of supernatural.
of losing my loved ones.
of having no money.
of angry people.
of people who’re mad at me.
of babies who cry nonstop.
of overzealous dogs.
i want a dog!
dar wants to keep a dog.
but mummy says mama doesn’t like dogs.
and daddy will surely say no.
‘cos then who’ll look after it.
when he pees or poops.
mama? yeye?
dar says he’ll do it but i know he won’t. HA
it’s 4PM
the hongky’s coming back from his meeting.
please come back late!
noisy bugger.
i thought about it for the past few days.
i realised what’s missing.
but i haven’t said anything yet.
i wonder if he even bothers.
maybe it’s forgotten.
hmm hmm
i feel very lifeless these days.
and i’ve got a very boring life.
it’s like work, home, fb, sleep everyday.
except thursdays where i have kickboxing.
and saturdays and sundays no work!
i feel like i’ve missed out on loads of things.
i need a new wallet.
maybe it’s my wallet that causes my $$ to go so fast.
superstitious much?
i need to cut my hair.
my fringe is irritating me.
too long.
the last time i cut was 2 months ago?
my hair is growing longer!
duhhh~
and yes this post is very long.
i spend 1 hour 30 mins on this i think.
just random thoughts popping up in my mind.
i gonna go daydream now.
byebyebye!

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JoAnn — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 16:40:14 +0000

happyness & crappyness

JoAnn — Sat, 18 Jul 2009 20:04:55 +0000

it’s almost the end of 4th week. things are going great(: though i wish he would have a mind of his own and make some decisions instead of always saying anything. damn pek chek at times since ppl who knows me also know that i cant make decisions and that i’ve been saying that i’ll be with someone who can make decisions and he’s like exactly not that =.=

haha went out to the zoo today. sort of like a double date i guess. fun trip since its been a long time since i’ve been to the zoo. tried playing with his cam too. learnt abit abt it haa. i wanna go to the science centre too! haha and picnic + kite flying at marina barrage!

then at home was crap. parents are darn irritating. wash my hair late they wanna say. bathe late they wanna say. den 2+am come home they scold. complain that it’s late. im old enough luh. and it’s not like they don’t know who i’m out with. zzz totally ruined my mood. den just complained abit to my bro he said i’m irritating. like them. so after that i just kept quiet. soemtime i hate them all. i shall not complain to my bro anymore. i shall just keep quiet at home now. anw i’m out most of the time now. when i came home just now i said hi to my bro he totally didn’t hear me like so engrossed in whatever he’s doing on his comp and he still has the cheek to say that he only sees me like 1-2 hours a day den i go to sleep. it’s also partly his fault since he doesn’t really talk to me much anymore. i’d rather be out than home now.

think family

JoAnn — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 16:07:15 +0000

went to the library to borrow this book called “Why? When Both My Parents Took Their Lives” by Yin. came across this at popular and read a couple of pages. really touching. nearly cried there. lol so i went to borrow it from the library. its a true story about this woman who was really close to her father and one day he committed suicide. basically its about how she survived after his death, coping with her grief and healing.

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JoAnn — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:14:09 +0000

vomit

JoAnn — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 01:34:47 +0000

i don’t know what’s wrong with me. feeling moody recently. actually, i think since school started. this semester sucks! the schoolwork, e-learning, class, projects! i don’t know if i can take it any longer. i just want to go through this semester fast. i don’t want to compete with others. i just want to be able to pass. i get irritated easily too. especially in class. because of certain people. RAHHHHH!
i don’t have the mood to do anything. i don’t do tutorials. my assignments are submitted late. everything’s done last minute. i’m procrastinating. A LOT. my workshop from 2 weeks ago is still not done and not submitted. just because there’s no deadline. so i keep telling myself i’ll do it tomorrow. and that tomorrow never comes. i really have to get started on that because last week’s workshop is a continuation of that. which means that i’m already behind by 2 workshops. plus this week, it’ll be 3! urgh!!!!!!! get me out of this shithole.
thank god for friends that i can count on. i’m glad that they’re there. without them, i don’t think i’ll be going to school, to tutorials & lectures. i recently felt betrayed by someone. someone whom was pretty close to me. but things have changed since. and.. i don’t know. i feel like i can’t tell her things anymore. she’s .. weird. yeah, i’m weird too, but a different kind of weird =/ =] =(