second-guessing

so… i’ve decided to take up the job offer. yep, because the 1st month temp period doesn’t count in the 6 months thingy. so i can leave once the 1 month is up if i decide that i don’t like the company/people or the people don’t like me and i don’t have to pay up. i hope i like the place. it’s considered an established company i guess? considering how long it has been here. will be starting work on the 30th. suddenly i feel that 1 week left is not enough. hahah just plain laziness la. well, i’ll just be waiting for payday once i start work. mooooooolah!
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“Sometimes it’s the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.”

~ Keri Russell

dilemma

i don’t know what to do. i’ve been offered a job. yes i know, thats good.

HOWEVER, i have to work for at least 6 months and if i quit within that 6 months, i have to pay them money. so, im considering whether to take up that job or not. why am i considering?

because,

what if i don’t like that company?
what if i don’t like the people there?
what if the people there don’t like me?
lots and lots of what ifs.

i know that being offered a job is good enough, but still..

if they don’t have this 6 months thing, i would take up the job offer, since i can quit anytime i like with no consequences.

if i take up the job, i’ll start on the 30th this month, and 1st month will be temp period. the next 3 months is probation and after that, will be the perm where i’ll get a pay rise hopefully.

i’ve decided to ask them if the 6 months thing can start after the 1st month temp period. if it isn’t possible, i shall just turn it down and go on to look for other jobs. D:

on the other hand, i’m seriously considering going back to my internship company. ya, i just said it. I AM THINKING OF GOING BACK THERE.. i know i’ve said that i wouldn’t be going back there previously.

but at least i know the people there and i know that (most of them) are nice. AND, if i go back there, at least i can be in the HR department, and that’s what i want to do. i think.

besides, my parents and grandparents! keep bugging me about it. not really bugging, but they’re asking me to go back there since its near and boss asked me to go back after i graduate. but, people might just be saying it as courtesy right? i don’t know.

what to do now????????

reconnecting

i’ve been having dreams recently and most of them have my friends in it. old friends (primary school) and now friends.

i’ve always wanted to look for my primary school friends from Hong Kah Primary School. especially Cristabel, who was in the same class and used to stay in the same block as me. and there’s also Sarah, a philippino classmate who’s been to my house a couple of times and talks to my maid =) and then there’s Peixuan, Shi Hui, Hwee Gek, Hannah, Diana, Nicole, Hafidz, Lester, Felix, Lionel.. can’t really remember the other names. and and Mr Gan. a really nice teacher. he was my form teacher in Primary 5 and he started reading short parts of Harry Potter just before school ends. see! before Harry Potter got famous ok. haha

my dream was super weird though. i decided to join this contest (don’t know what contest is it) because of whatever reason that i might meet my ex-classmates from Hong Kah (think it’s cos the contest is held near Bukit Batok?) and then when i went there, true enough i saw most of my classmates there. and then i see everyone and we started greeting each other sayinghow long we haven’t met (as if we’ll remember each others faces till now =.=) then i keep looking around and finally sees Cristabel and i woke up o.O

and then there was another dream where i dreamt of me talking to some people (can’t remember who) and then oli smses me. a super long msg. forgot what was in it except for this part that she says she saw a pair of super pretty heels online and she bought it (andi was thinking how much). and then my dream went off to somewhere else and in the back of my mind i keep telling myself that i have to reply oli. but in the end i woke up without replying her sms. lol weird. i think this is ‘cos oli seems to be MIA-ing? haha

anyway, been sending in my resumes to many many jobs since last week and for the past few days been getting calls in the early morning, disturbing my precious sleep, asking me to go down for interviews etc. though most of those are recruitment agencies. hopefully i get a job soon. but at the same time, i still want to rest leh. see how things goes.

hmm, maybe i’ll go dig out the primary school photos and scan it to post it here. hehehe