dilemma

i don’t know what to do. i’ve been offered a job. yes i know, thats good.

HOWEVER, i have to work for at least 6 months and if i quit within that 6 months, i have to pay them money. so, im considering whether to take up that job or not. why am i considering?

because,

what if i don’t like that company?
what if i don’t like the people there?
what if the people there don’t like me?
lots and lots of what ifs.

i know that being offered a job is good enough, but still..

if they don’t have this 6 months thing, i would take up the job offer, since i can quit anytime i like with no consequences.

if i take up the job, i’ll start on the 30th this month, and 1st month will be temp period. the next 3 months is probation and after that, will be the perm where i’ll get a pay rise hopefully.

i’ve decided to ask them if the 6 months thing can start after the 1st month temp period. if it isn’t possible, i shall just turn it down and go on to look for other jobs. D:

on the other hand, i’m seriously considering going back to my internship company. ya, i just said it. I AM THINKING OF GOING BACK THERE.. i know i’ve said that i wouldn’t be going back there previously.

but at least i know the people there and i know that (most of them) are nice. AND, if i go back there, at least i can be in the HR department, and that’s what i want to do. i think.

besides, my parents and grandparents! keep bugging me about it. not really bugging, but they’re asking me to go back there since its near and boss asked me to go back after i graduate. but, people might just be saying it as courtesy right? i don’t know.

what to do now????????

the end marks a beginning

finally, my 7 weeks attachment ended! haha i know it’s just 7 weeks and i can’t stand it, how about those who went for the 6 months one. =p but still, it’s pretty tough being in HR you know. though my boss & colleagues keeps asking me to go back there during my holidays or after i graduated, but i don’t think i can stand going back there to work. haha i like the people there but still, i wouldn’t want to go back i think.

last day of work on friday was kinda fun. slacked for abt 2 hrs cos they all went for a meeting leaving me alone in the department. i closed the door so no one would come in to disturb & played my DS! hahah but a couple of ppl did knock & open the door la. went to lunch with them all at cafe cartel. their treat =D their service at the IMM branch isn’t very good la. anyway, at the end of the day, i had to rush around to settle my work with them cos my boss wasn’t around & i told the rest to just pass the stuffs back to her. i’m out of that stressful place! whooooooooo~~

and now, i’m starting the new semester in about 10 hrs. my last semester in NP. i’m gonna work harder! i’m hoping i’ll get better grades this semester. last semester’s grades was good! for all of us! =D hopefully FYP won’t be a killer. and i hope i get good teammates.

life-less

ever since i started attachment, it’s like totally no life can! everyday work, home, work, home. den weekends is my driving lessons. totally no time to go out. and my attachment pay is freaking little i dun even have money to shop la. besides, leehom’s concert is coming up! and i’m gonna spend my next pay for his concert tics, which is like $200.

and NP’s timetabling system sucks! i think i’ve siad this before, but i can’t help it la. makes us so kanchiong and frustrated. oli nearly couldn’t get into the same class! and now, i just hope we get nice classmates. since i heard that the ppl who’re in my class isn’t from our sem =/ and IS modules enrolment is next! acutally tmr. another round of kanchiong-ing!!

and driving’s fun! i just realised that i find myself looking forward to my driving lessons every weekend. haha! and till now, my instructors have been pretty nice. lucky la! thou i had a couple blah ones. my grp also doesn’t have fixed instuctors so i get instructors from all over. throughout my 12 lessons, all my instructors were different la. dirivng on sat! cant waitttttttt~

5 weeks 3 days to go.

was so freaking tired today. kept dozing off while working =x
… actually i think i feel tired everyday.

monday blues yesterday. super sian 1/2 feeling. im longing for every friday 6pm and hating every monday.

i need more time! i wanna play my ds. i wanna sleep. i wanna suntan. i wanna go for my driving lessons. i wanna shop.

you know, i went for my driving lesson on sunday after breaking for 2 whole weeks, and my driving was damn sucky. i couldn’t control the brakes properly. my turning wasn’t smooth as before. =(

please please please let the next few weeks past faster. and then it’s another 2 days of rest and the last semester starts =/

TGIF!

work is tiring! waking up at 6.30am everyday and sleeping at 12am. that isn’t enough for me you know. i’m spending so little time on my hobby! i needa catch up on my sleep on the weekends. rahhhh! today past like really really slowly, and i kept looking at the clock hoping that it’ll be 6pm so i can get out of that place. it feels so stressful in there, like i can’t do absolutely anything wrong, else i’ll be blacklisted forever. you know, on the first day, i already can’t stand it and felt like giving up. but i can’t! i just have to get through 7 weeks! then it’s over. i don’t want to end up failing internship and having to go through it all again, but this time, without ollie with me just ‘cos i know she’ll pass it. haha i can’t say much here in case someone from the company sees it =/

ah! and we finally knew our pay. it’s damn effing little lah. it’s like the minimum pay one can get for internship. arghhh! there goes our list of things we wanna buy. so depressing after we knew about it. not knowing was better. at least we can still dream. ah well. we got no choice.

and my driving lessons are gonna cost about $70/lesson. ‘cos after work will be peak hours already and weekend lessons cost more too. spending more money again. i wanna get my driving license soooon. but i’ve just started stage 2 luh. another lesson on sunday! i hope i get to drive far =D