arctic

maybe i should wear gloves in the office.
wants to leave this place asap!
think i’ll miss my buddies here.
but i still want to leave.
definitely won’t miss the devil.
she doesn’t wear prada.
i want chanel!
chanel 2.55 <3
this is damn random.
i have nothing to do at work that’s why.
though there’s submission tomorrow.
but there’s nothing much yet.
might have to OT =(
last kickboxing lesson tonight!
will have to skip if OT.
signed up for more lessons.
keep fit time.
NOT diet.
me never grow fat only grow fatter.
there’s a difference.
1 more day!
don’t like to msg ahgong.
his replies like very cold sometimes =(
or that it feels very fu yan.
hope he does well for his live firing.
and i really regret writing that letter.
after he said they’ll use it to mindfuck them.
though i don’t know how.
i wonder if they’ll read it =O
sudden loud thunder!
my fingers are freezing =(
it’s dark outside.
gonna rain soon.
payday’s coming!
time to save up some money.
thinking of studying soon.
i hate working what with all the politics.
i hate the hongky.
i am not your personal secretary okay!
knsccb !#%@#
gonna study HR i think.
remember how i used to complain about the attachment company?
actually it wasn’t that bad.
and daddy says he can see that i was happier working there.
i had ollie there with me!!
now i don’t =((
i miss poly life.
i miss my babes.
i wanna sit at the underpass eating tabao-ed beehoon.
skipping lectures to eat pepper lunch at IMM.
slacking at the underpass or CC basement.
getting chased off the CC basement by “ollie’s best friend”
buying onigiris and vitasoy up to class.
being (almost) always late for class.
laughing at shyy burping.
all the funny antics and lovely mr woo woo.
and then i miss those times in poly year 1 when the n1 people would meet up like almost everyday.
how we would hangout at macs most of the times.
laughing and being happy.
i don’t wanna grow up =(
growing up means more stress and responsibilities.
i wanna be that cute kid i once was.
sleeping eating playing all day.
no responsibilities.
no money issues.
i wanna be a taitai!
work when i want to.
slack when i want to.
no worries about money.
of course i want my hubby to love me too.
i don’t think i’ll be happy even if i’m a taitai but hubby doesn’t love me =(
i need lots of TLC.
i think it’s very hard to love me.
sometimes i wonder if zy finds it hard too.
i’m afraid.
of what?
of doing the wrong things.
of saying the wrong things.
of things going wrong.
of insects.
of supernatural.
of losing my loved ones.
of having no money.
of angry people.
of people who’re mad at me.
of babies who cry nonstop.
of overzealous dogs.
i want a dog!
dar wants to keep a dog.
but mummy says mama doesn’t like dogs.
and daddy will surely say no.
‘cos then who’ll look after it.
when he pees or poops.
mama? yeye?
dar says he’ll do it but i know he won’t. HA
it’s 4PM
the hongky’s coming back from his meeting.
please come back late!
noisy bugger.
i thought about it for the past few days.
i realised what’s missing.
but i haven’t said anything yet.
i wonder if he even bothers.
maybe it’s forgotten.
hmm hmm
i feel very lifeless these days.
and i’ve got a very boring life.
it’s like work, home, fb, sleep everyday.
except thursdays where i have kickboxing.
and saturdays and sundays no work!
i feel like i’ve missed out on loads of things.
i need a new wallet.
maybe it’s my wallet that causes my $$ to go so fast.
superstitious much?
i need to cut my hair.
my fringe is irritating me.
too long.
the last time i cut was 2 months ago?
my hair is growing longer!
duhhh~
and yes this post is very long.
i spend 1 hour 30 mins on this i think.
just random thoughts popping up in my mind.
i gonna go daydream now.
byebyebye!

freezing to death~

rahhhhh my hands are cold my nose is cold my feet is cold even my ears are cold! damnnn i don’t understand why my tolerance towards cold is sooo low considering the fact that i sleep in aircon every night. blahh

you know, i’ve been thinking alot these few days (the result of having too much free time) and i realised that i not only need emotional closeness but physical closeness too. i mean like how i need to be able to see my friends/boyf frequently too. now i feel like wei’s the only one here for me now like she’s the only one who can make me feel happyness now (besides some funny stuffs at work), and i wish wing was here too though i know that she’ll always be here with me in the heart hahah <3

and then there’s zy too. sometimes i think why my first relationship’s like that! like only together for a few months and then he has no time for me already. but then i’m handling it pretty well as compared to the first week he went in lol. like how he would take ages to reply my replies to HIS smses especially since i replied right after receiving it. which is the reason why i don’t feel like smsing him because i know that i’ll only torture myself as i’ll be waiting for his reply but then i’ll end up smsing him still and waiting for his reply the whole day. lol well i’m slowly trying to get used to it.

and i’ve got god “children” hahha 3! so honoured. i told wei next time i have one she’ll be the godma too (needless to say, wing will be too) heheh but i think they’ll have to wait for few years. i WILL get one! haha her new 4 month old is so damn cuteee not in photos though LOL but he likes to bite =c

and i wanna go to SPOOKTACULAR! it’s this halloween event at sentosa but then after seeing the video i’m having second thoughts. hahah it seems scarier than the night safari one luhh and night safari’s isn’t very scary but still i got scared =/ sianzation

4 more days till ah gong gets back! shall remind myself to bring aloe vera for his abrasions. so kelian =( and next week is like his field camp and he’s sure to have abrasions & mosquito bites & aches.

2 more hours left till end of work. and i’m on leave tomorrow! no work = happy jo-ann! hahah can’t wait for bonus day and then off i go wooots~

Today, I texted my brother saying “Always remember I love you! Never forget it!” to which he answered: “You better not be doing drugs.” FML

and then i saw this on FML and straight away thought of dar HAHA maybe i should try smsing him too to see his reply.

BRRR!

it’s freezing cold in the office and i don’t have my jacket with me! =( how i wish zy isn’t in tekong so then he can come have lunch with me and bring a jacket for me too sobs

moansday

it’s the monday blues AND gastric all rolled into one.

PLUS the stupid printer at work keeps jamming and i have to settle it like 154125 times.

how wonderful.

Protected: baby it’s you

didn’t mean it

It’s really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but it’s really sad when the best of friends become two strangers.

suddenly i feel that i’ve been neglecting my friends. like .. ever since i’m with zy i practically spent everyday day with him. and you know, before when i was single, i tell people that i won’t make my boyf my everything. i won’t neglect my friends because of him. but now that i think about it, i did what i said i wouldn’t do. and that’s bad. i can’t make him my everything. what if i lose him one day. goodness. but it’s like i want to spend everyday with him. and when he’s not around i wish he were. and i seem to have stopped talking to my friends already. though i do talk to them when i see them online at times. i feel like i’ve got to start reconnecting with my friends. because i know they’ll still be there for me no matter what happens and they’ll never leave me unlike a boyf that might leave me for another girl. not that i think zy will do that. it’s just a girl’s insecurities. i’m sorry to my friends if i’ve seem like such a stranger to you, i didn’t mean to do that. i just feel like i need some time alone now first. and baby, i do love you and i’m not regretting okay. don’t anyhow think.

For you see, each day I love you more.
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

the way i am

zy has been really sweet this week we talked like every night and i love it when he tells me that he misses me and <3s me in a reeeally sincere way like so cute though he does make me think unhappy thoughts like the day before our anni but everything’s okay the next day though i wish he would stop having negative thoughts it isn’t gonna help our relationship if he suddenly goes emo out of nowhere and doesn’t talk to me and shows me ‘that face’ i hate ‘that face’ anyway he isn’t booking out this week and i’m gonna find things to do woo but still gonna sleep early so when i see him next week im gonna have no pimples hehehe pms came at the wrong time was sucha wreck last week due to zy’s enlistment and pms made it worse turning me into a crybaby thankgod it’s over hahah i’m living normally now not like last week’s crybaby and i’m gonna get a life back haha date me out people this way time passes faster and before i know it it’s the weekends and zy’s ooooout hehehe 8 more day 8 more dayssssssss

youuuu

where’re you??
wad’re you doing??
you said
you said
you said

sianzation

boring day at work
having no mood to do anything
happy 4th month anni baby!
may we last long long <3
got summoned to the ‘office’
nearly cried
forced myself to stop
thankgod i didnt
imma strong girl!
i wont cry for work
*smirks*
10 more days to a hug from him
he makes things better (:

that pig

and he whispers “ying wei wo yao yong yuan he ni zai yi qi”

<3