firsts

so today’s my first day in my first real job. everything’s okay i think. at least the colleagues aren’t bitches or anything like it. i didn’t sleep much last night. tried to sleep at 1am. laid around in bed until around 4+, 5am then i dozed off. then suddenly my alarm rang at 6am. ROARRR!! felt like i slept for 10 minutes only lah! but thank god i had quite alot of stuffs to do. at least i din’t fall asleep. my eyelids are so heavy now, but i wanna watch the 10pm channel u show. goddd help me. i’m already accumulating sleep debt on day one. damn it.

and i need to improve my people skills =/

: laopo <3

“You just have to go after what you want
and if it doesn’t want you back then
it doesn’t deserve you anyways.”

“Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.”

“Things change, people change and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up.
It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories.
Letting go does not mean you’re giving up.
It means accepting that some things weren’t meant to be.”

“They say if you love something let it go,
if it comes back its yours, and that’s how you know
its for real, its for keeps.”

“Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad.
you need to break down and be torn apart.
you need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together.
sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first.
cause without sadness, there is no happiness, you would never learn to smile.”

“The past is gone but something might be found to take it’s place”

“Always take comfort in knowing that you are independent enough, that you don’t need to rely on anyone else for your own happiness.”

DON’T waste your time worrying about guys,
they will come and go.
DON’T waste your time caring about the people who don’t like you,
chances are you don’t like them –e i t h e r–.
DON’T waste your time worrying if people are talking about you,
you affected their lives, they didn’t affect yours.
waste your time with friends–live for the moment,
laugh often, be immature, do anything and everything.
if its something you’ll regret in the morning,
sleep late and when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends
because your friends are what matter most.
when you have your friends, you have everything.”

“The love of a friend is the most wonderful love one can have.”

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just to let you know that i’ll always be here even if i seem inattentive lately.. (:

second-guessing

so… i’ve decided to take up the job offer. yep, because the 1st month temp period doesn’t count in the 6 months thingy. so i can leave once the 1 month is up if i decide that i don’t like the company/people or the people don’t like me and i don’t have to pay up. i hope i like the place. it’s considered an established company i guess? considering how long it has been here. will be starting work on the 30th. suddenly i feel that 1 week left is not enough. hahah just plain laziness la. well, i’ll just be waiting for payday once i start work. mooooooolah!
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“Sometimes it’s the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.”

~ Keri Russell

dilemma

i don’t know what to do. i’ve been offered a job. yes i know, thats good.

HOWEVER, i have to work for at least 6 months and if i quit within that 6 months, i have to pay them money. so, im considering whether to take up that job or not. why am i considering?

because,

what if i don’t like that company?
what if i don’t like the people there?
what if the people there don’t like me?
lots and lots of what ifs.

i know that being offered a job is good enough, but still..

if they don’t have this 6 months thing, i would take up the job offer, since i can quit anytime i like with no consequences.

if i take up the job, i’ll start on the 30th this month, and 1st month will be temp period. the next 3 months is probation and after that, will be the perm where i’ll get a pay rise hopefully.

i’ve decided to ask them if the 6 months thing can start after the 1st month temp period. if it isn’t possible, i shall just turn it down and go on to look for other jobs. D:

on the other hand, i’m seriously considering going back to my internship company. ya, i just said it. I AM THINKING OF GOING BACK THERE.. i know i’ve said that i wouldn’t be going back there previously.

but at least i know the people there and i know that (most of them) are nice. AND, if i go back there, at least i can be in the HR department, and that’s what i want to do. i think.

besides, my parents and grandparents! keep bugging me about it. not really bugging, but they’re asking me to go back there since its near and boss asked me to go back after i graduate. but, people might just be saying it as courtesy right? i don’t know.

what to do now????????

twilight

watched twilight last night. it totally sucked. wonder why so many people are gushing about the movie and the actor. i don’t think he’s handsome. i think the movie is a disappointment to those who read the book. i read it. that’s why it sucked. lol there wasn’t a climax in it at all. the book was sooo much better. urghhh! and i waited so long to watch the dvd version somemore.

i haven’t found one

Don’t you hate that? Uncomfortable silence.
Why do we feel it’s necessary to talk about bullshit in order to feel comfortable?
That’s when you know you’ve found somebody really special.
When you can just shut the hell up for a minute & comfortably share a silence.

reconnecting

i’ve been having dreams recently and most of them have my friends in it. old friends (primary school) and now friends.

i’ve always wanted to look for my primary school friends from Hong Kah Primary School. especially Cristabel, who was in the same class and used to stay in the same block as me. and there’s also Sarah, a philippino classmate who’s been to my house a couple of times and talks to my maid =) and then there’s Peixuan, Shi Hui, Hwee Gek, Hannah, Diana, Nicole, Hafidz, Lester, Felix, Lionel.. can’t really remember the other names. and and Mr Gan. a really nice teacher. he was my form teacher in Primary 5 and he started reading short parts of Harry Potter just before school ends. see! before Harry Potter got famous ok. haha

my dream was super weird though. i decided to join this contest (don’t know what contest is it) because of whatever reason that i might meet my ex-classmates from Hong Kah (think it’s cos the contest is held near Bukit Batok?) and then when i went there, true enough i saw most of my classmates there. and then i see everyone and we started greeting each other sayinghow long we haven’t met (as if we’ll remember each others faces till now =.=) then i keep looking around and finally sees Cristabel and i woke up o.O

and then there was another dream where i dreamt of me talking to some people (can’t remember who) and then oli smses me. a super long msg. forgot what was in it except for this part that she says she saw a pair of super pretty heels online and she bought it (andi was thinking how much). and then my dream went off to somewhere else and in the back of my mind i keep telling myself that i have to reply oli. but in the end i woke up without replying her sms. lol weird. i think this is ‘cos oli seems to be MIA-ing? haha

anyway, been sending in my resumes to many many jobs since last week and for the past few days been getting calls in the early morning, disturbing my precious sleep, asking me to go down for interviews etc. though most of those are recruitment agencies. hopefully i get a job soon. but at the same time, i still want to rest leh. see how things goes.

hmm, maybe i’ll go dig out the primary school photos and scan it to post it here. hehehe

DOUBUTSU URANAI

It is often difficult to understand other people’s true personality at first site. It’s not that easy even if you know the person well.
It is in a situation like these that you can make use of the DOUBUTSU URANAI.
DOUBUTSU URANAI uses the date of birth, based on the Four Pillars of Destiny, that breaks down the human characteristics into 12 different kinds of animals, different colors and 4 groups.

credits to DOUBUTSU URANAI

You are Brown Koala, who is quiet and modest. (true true. though saying myself modest isn’t really modest isn’t it? lol)
You are graceful and have atmosphere of being rather old fashioned. (graceful? HAH i’m far from being graceful)
You don’t like conflicts and are a peaceful person.
People will not hate you. (hope so)
But you don’t get loved passionately by the others either.
You tend to have the same kind of relationships with each one of them, and no one becoming special.
You don’t get too close to anyone. (very true =/)
You have great sensitivity, and those who get to know you may find you rather too nervous. (quite huh.)
You are cautious to people around you, and worry too much about your family and yourself.
You are realistic person, and you prefer rationalism to emotional things.
Nevertheless, you possess great sensitivity and have sense of beauty. (yeah, too sensitive that i cry when i’m reading sad novels)
You are very romantic type of person.
You also possess natural aptitude to spirituality.
Your selfish comment may make you isolated from people around you. ( D: )
If you can control your weakness, you may be able to show your talent that matches the need of the society.
If you try to be a perfectionist, you will break the inner balance and may shut yourself in your own dreamy world.
You should see things objectively and widen your vision.
This will lead to successful life.
Once married, you will be a devoted wife, and a mother obsessed with children’s education. (haa i don’t want to give my kids too much stress though)

Characteristics & Personality of the Koala

1. Koalas need time to space out (that’s me)
2. Koalas can be the life of the party (not me. lol)
3. Koalas base a decision on whether or not it will be fun
4. Koalas love warm places (pretty true. but i love snow too!)
5. Are Koalas calculating? (no? hmm.. maybe a little =x haha)
6. Koalas are good at playing tricks and not getting caught
7. Koalas are the master of the excuse (HAHA i can give alot of excuses to my dad)
8. Koalas are suspicious
9. Koalas won’t enter competitions they will lose
10. Koalas are oddly romantic

Classification by different colors

Brown Koalas possesses a highly studious mind. (i hate studying leh)

Classification by the 4 groups – Sun, Earth, Full Moon, New Moon

Self centered consciousness
Person in this side, want to keep their own pace of work, and dislike being interrupted by other people. They have a strong sense of “not interfere others, and not being interfered”. They prefer to act according to their will.

Objective oriented type
This type of person acts after thorough and careful planning. And if they decide on something, they will not want to change their mind in the middle. They work hard to achieve the set objective, and think very high of achievements.

Happiness is?

shawn’s homework yesterday..

Happiness is toching touching a dog.
Happiness is to do wile well in my exams.

hahah cute

my own version of happiness.

Happiness is to be able to eat good food everyday.
Happiness is to love and be loved.
Happiness is to have great friends around me.
Happiness is when I don’t have to worry about money.
Happiness is to be able to stay by my parents side.
Happiness is when I’m out with my cousins or friends.
Happiness is to read books while eating chocolates.
Happiness is spending time with my loved ones.
Happiness is to be able to do something I like everyday.
Happiness is to find a job I love.
Happiness is when I think of Wang Lee Hom. LOL
Happiness is those nights when my brother and I will talk just before sleeping.
Happiness is when I do something stupid with my cousins or friends. (like pressing all the buttons in the lift and running to hide when caught. LOL childish but fun =x)
Happiness is to be able to eat chocolates and not get fat.
Happiness is when I don’t have PMS.
Happiness is when I don’t have backaches during menstruation.
Happiness it to have a hot cup of tea right now.
Happiness is to be able to eat maggi mee and not drop hair.
Happiness is when my parents don’t nag at me.
Happiness is to not have pimples.
Happiness is to win 4D or Toto or Big Sweep and alot alot of money.
Happiness to to own a Volkswagen Beetle or Mini Cooper.
Happiness is to be able to alter my chin. D:
Happiness is to be loved by someone I love.
Happiness is where my heart lies.

that’s all i can think of now.

what’s your happiness?